One + 1 = Thr3e

Things are getting quite good.

Moved out of the house. Yes it was a bit early then the lease, and yes I'm gonna be out of pocket a little bit, but at least I'll have my freedom back and feel welcome in the home I live in. I'm glad other people are stoked at my apparent stupidity though.

The unpacking is being tedious, but that was to be expected. Loving the fact that my housemates share a common love for my favourite wine and dvds. Maybe thats the reason why its taking so long to unpack.

Have also started seeing someone. Well not started, its been a couple of weeks now and we are official, so I pretty much should say I have a boyfriend (still trying to get used to that). He is great, heaps in common, and I enjoy spending time with him, so woohoo!

Work is work. Who knew working retail could be so fun!

Only really had one piece of bad news during the week, but trying to come to grips with that. Hating the fact that my dream for my future is getting flaunted in front of my face, but I'm sure that in 12 months time it will all be good. Well fingers crossed anyway.

Still no internet connection at home, me being lazy and can't be arsed getting it connected. But will have it up and running shortly.

Remember this?

Well the six months are up. I received it a couple of days ago, and I did anything but laugh. I thought it would be funny, for me to go back and read about it, but sadly, I think I barely managed to smile reading it.

Seeing that I had it on public, I might as well show you all what I wrote to myself 6 months ago.

By the way, I removed the name into be nice and stuff like that.

I recently did a quiz on here, which was to see whether or not I was an alcoholic. Now I don’t think I am. Mainly for the fact that I don’t feel the need to crack open a can in the morning. Some may see that my need to drink sometimes can be a tad on the alcoholic side, seeing that in the past couple of months, if something has happened, than I’ve turned to the friends, hit the clubs and down the drinks. I think that sometimes it’s what some people do to deal with issues, so its not really an alcoholic trait.

I recently also got asked on by one of my friends whether or not all of my pictures have some sort of alcoholic drink in them. The only reason why it may look like this is because Jo usually becomes a photo whore when we go out. And when we go out, we usually drink.

But I think thats the same with everyone really.

I’ve had my first loss of someone in what I would call me immediate family. My childhood pet, my tabby cat, was hit by a car and had to be put down today.

Seeing that I don’t live at home anymore, it wasn’t until I went to go baby-sit my little brother and sister that I found out. No one was home, so I waited to get home, and when they got home, mum had red eyes and it was quite clear that she had been crying. In her hands was a pink blanket that had been folded over a couple of times. I had no idea what was going on, and asked mum what had happening.

All she had to say was Tabby, and I knew exactly what had happened. Apparently she had been hit by a car, and she had gone under the house because she was sore, and when cats get hurt badly, they tend to want to be alone. Mum found her this morning, and all she was doing was crying. They had no other choice to put her down.

When mum first said it, it didn’t really sink in. I’ve been extremely lucky when it comes to deaths in my family, I only really remember one, and that was my nan. It was the first funeral I ever had to attend for a family member, and I never wanted to do it again.

Tabby was my favourite cat. I grew up with her. When I used to live at home, Tabby would sleep in my bed, either at my feet, or she would sometimes manage to sneak under the blankets and sleep right next to me. She was affectionate and would always come to you and brush against your leg, or just fall to sleep in her lap.

She was old and she had been through so much. She had lived a long life, and deserved to die a more dignified death. To be hit by a car is just tragic, we always thought that she was going to die of old age. I always thought she was going to be around. Whenever I would visit the family, I would always see Tabby. Whenever I would stay at the house, Tabby would always sleep with me. She was just a part of this house, and she always will be.

I will always miss you Tabby.

One of my latest facebook addictions has been an application called ‘No Mercy’. Where basically you get asked a questions, and given two friends, one of which you have to pick that fits the question most, and the best thing about it is that it is all anonymous! The other good thing about it is that it is pretty harsh and bitchy questions. For example, who would you push off a cliff, and who do you hate more? Now the title of the post should make a little more sense.

Apparently, amongst my friends, I need more sex. What’s even better, in the whole facebook community, I’m ranked at 8^th for most votes on needing more sex. Now seeing that for more clueless I’m ranked 207,349^th, I'm pretty high up there. As you can imagine, I’m not that excited about it. I knew already that that was the case, but now I have my friend’s opinions to back it up as well and all of Facebook know about it now.

I've always wanted to be able to just go out and pick up, and have wondered what it would be like. Never have I put it into practice though*. I'm still proud of the fact that I've never taken a random home, or gone home with one.

But it's not only facebook which highlights the fact that I need more sex. At my place of work, I regularly have school kids come in and buying packets of condoms. Yes, I just said packets, yesterday I had a year 10 kid come in and he bought two packets. I'm hoping that they are only buying them to blow up and mess around with, not actually use them to mess around!

So its nice to know, that everywhere around me, there are signs that I need more sex!

*Read about someone who has, here.

I was sick of being pale and white. I was sick of looking like a ghost in some of the photos that were taken of me and my friends. So I decided to do something about it.

First it started off with some fake tan. I think this was one of the biggest mistakes that I could have made. Instead of turning a lovely tanned colour, I went a slightly orange colour. Which was mainly highlighted by the extra orange bits between my fingers and on my ankles. Lets just say after that experience, I was staying away from fake tan for a very long time.

Next came the solarium, which I had been saying I would go to for a long time, but never really got around to doing it. Finally the wife took me with her, and from that day on I was hooked. My goal was to be brown before my birthday, so I went quite regularly and was actually surprised at how tanned I was starting to look.

Because I was so white, at the start, they weren't sure how many minutes I should be going in for at a time, so I started going for only 4 minutes, just to see if I burnt or had a reaction or something like that. Needless to say, I didn't have one, and I started going in for longer sessions. Now I go in for like 10 minutes at a time.

Due to my previous experiences with fake tan, see above, I held off from using any sort of bronzer or tingle cream while using the solarium. Then one day, one of the girls asked why I was just using the normal one, and she managed to convince me to try one with a bronzer in it. Thankfully there was no orange marks on me, so I continue to use it.

I haven't been in a couple of weeks, and I think thats why I've become a bit stressed lately. Going to the solarium makes me feel all relaxed, because it forces me to chill out for at least the 10 minutes. So when I go, its not really just for the tan, but also my own mental wellbeing*.

Because I haven't been in a couple of weeks, I've lost my tan line. I was pretty devastated when I saw that. So I'm going back tomorrow morning. Below is some pictures of me before and after. Obviously the ones on the left are pre-solarium, and the ones on the right are after.

*As you can tell, I've tried to justify my solarium addiction, even though it probably isn't true!

Softball is something thats in my blood. All my family play, and I can remember playing it ever since I can remember anything! This year I decided to take the year off from playing and I'm just coaching the women's team. Yesterday was going to be the first game that I had watched the men play this season, without actually playing myself.

The game started and a couple of minutes in, I noticed that an A Grade Men's game didn't have a line umpire. Now I haven't umpired for ages, and I knew the umpire doing the game, so I figured that I would go help them out. Not because I'm a nice caring person, but because I couldn't stand to watch them play, if I wasn't on the field. I knew that if I watched, I would wanna play, and I didn't want to test my already failing self control. So I then picked up a clicker and went and umpired the men's game.

I must admit though, that I did catch a couple of glimpses of the game while I was line umpiring, but tried very hard to ignore it. Well I'm about five weeks in, so lets hope I can last the next 15 or so. Whenever I am near softball, this evil competitive gene comes out, so I just gotta try and keep that for the women's game and hopefully it will go away for the mens.

As for the women's team, we are traveling along quite smoothly. Ok, so I might stop being modest for a second... We are DOMINATING! So far we haven't dropped a game yet, and as of last week, so not including yesterday's win, 10-5, we are on drop of the ladder with 1000%. With a whooping 40 points for and 4 points against. But its still early in on the season, we've still got a long way to go until we go for the flag!

I'll keep you all updated on the progress of my self control, and women's winning spree.

I got slightly embarrassed yesterday. While serving a customer, when I gave her her change, she said to me that I have a good smile, and that it was good to see people smiling for a chance. Needless to say, I went slightly red, sheepishly said thank you, and became over self conscious of my smile from that second on.

I went and saw Saw IV the other day. Thankfully I didn't almost vomit like I did in the third one. My mind is still being made up as to what I thought of it. I think I need to go see it again, as there was got a lot to take in in this one.

Something that I've always liked about the Saw movies is that there is minimal characters and a smart twist at the end of the movie, that leaves you sitting in shock. With this movie, you still left the movie in shock, but I found that they had a few too many characters, or characters that were very similar, because I remember spending half the time going, hang on who was that guy. And just like with all the others, they reference the previous movies, so now I want to go back and watch them again, to see anything that I've missed.

The gore level in this one, isn't as extreme as the previous one. This one focuses more on Jigsaw. I've made the next bit white, as it is a spoiler for Saw III, so if you haven't seen it, don't highlight this bit. The movie starts where the third one ended, with the death of Jigsaw. Just when you think that because he and his apprentice Amanda are dead, that no more traps would happen, think again!

Overall, I thought the movie was pretty good, and if they make another one, than I'll be seeing that, but I think before I go see the next one, I'm gonna have to watch the previous ones a couple more times. Even if it means having to have a vomit bag next to me when I watch the third one again.

I give everyone nicknames. No matter who you are, no matter the relationship you have with me, you will have a nickname. I even give nicknames to people who don't even know me. Sometimes the people I give nicknames to, don't even know that I've given them one. This is usually done so that I can talk about that person with my friends, and people listening in don't know who I am talking about.

The latest nickname that I gave out was to Red Bull Guy (or RBG for short). RBG works near my work and comes in every so often and buys red bull. Now he is one of the most attractive guys that I have seen. There is just something about him, and for some reason, my gaydar picked up funny vibes from him. Now I thought that this guy was too hot to be gay, but I don't know if I was imagined it or not, but he was always smiling at me and stuff like that. So my first crush in a long time was born.

Now me being the shy person that I am, I was too scared to talk to him. I would serve him, and then he would walk out, and I would go up to one of the girls and tell them that RBG was just in. Which would usually then have me explaining to the girls who RBG was, because with nicknames I usually just make them up, not tell anyone but expect them to know who I'm talking about.

Anyway, I finally found out about RBG's sexuality on the weekend, when I saw him out at a local club, pashing someone who I assume is his girlfriend. At first he walked in, and they weren't walking close together, so I assumed sisters or something, but with the dirty dancing and the tonsil hockey that occured later on in the night, I'm assuming/hoping it wasn't a family member! So the likelihood of AdamMac and RBG being together is extremely slim, but I'm sure I'll get over it.

I'm really glad as well that the store use nicknames or the people we work with, and the known thieves that enter the store. Our common thieves are bag lady and mole face. So whenever they come in, everyone has to keep an eye on them, and you hear us whispering between the aisles, 'mole face again'.

One mistake that one of my fellow colleagues made, was telling me a nickname that I could call her, as her name is really weird to pronounce. So I proceeded to call her that nickname throughout the day. At the end of the day though, she came up to me and told me that she wasn't comfortable with me calling her that name. I'm sorry, but if you tell me to call you Hooters, than you must be silly to not think that I wouldn't take up the opportunity. I have since stopped.

Do you commonly use nicknames?

Theres got to be something about my appearance that I need to change. It's happening just a little bit too often for my liking. Every time I go out I get asked if I have any pills, or know where to find them.

To set the record straight, which I think I have done on this blog about 3 or 4 times, I don't take drugs. I never have, and it looks like I never will. I'm the type of person that is naturally energetic and I'm actually scared of how hyper I would be if I did take something. Could you imagine it? I would literally be bouncing off walls, floors and ceilings.

I don't know what it is that make people ask though. Maybe I act like I'm on something. Maybe its because I usually have a bottle of water on me when I'm driving, and people think its to keep me hydrated because of the drugs I'm. Maybe I look like a dealer.

Or maybe I'm just over-reacting and wanted to talk about drugs again on my blog. I like that one, so lets stick with that.

Did something a little bit different on Friday night. It was Bec's birthday so we all went out to Chill On, Ice Bar.

It was a really good night, something different for a change. It was really cool to be inside this bar that was made completely out of ice. Although it did get a bit cold, you get supplied with warm clothes before you go in.

It was also funny reading all the different rules about the place, thanks Jo for making sure that everyone was aware that I understood the rule "No Licking the Furniture", it's great to know you've got my best interests at heart.

I don't know if I'd go again, it seems to be a one-off experience, but the Funk bar above it was pretty good as well. Well, anywhere that has a disco ball in the shape of a human torso wins my vote.
After that we went out to a bar in the city called Bond Lounge. I'd never been there before, but I used to work opposite it, so I always used to think what type of place is inside. Honestly, it doesn't look crash hot from the outside, the saying don't judge a book by its cover comes to mind though. Inside was awesome. The interior design of the place as impressive, the bar staff were awesome, and the music was pretty good as well. It was a pity that there wasn't that many people there though, because that place looked like it would go off!

Yesterday was not the best day.

I went and saw The Seeker which I thought looked really good. Even though it did seem like a bit of cross between Harry Potter/Lord of the Rings, I still wanted to see it. I was pretty disappointed with it. The acting was horrible, as were some of the shots during the film. I have never wanted to leave during a movie before, while there was that one time during Saw 3 when I thought I was going to vomit but thats a whole other story. So I sat there for what felt like an eternity and painlessly endured it.

To make matters worse, when I left the cinemas I pulled my iPod out of pocket and found that I had accidentally broken it. Sometime during the one and a half hours I wasted watching that film, I had leaned against my pocket and inadvertently smashed the screen. Now my iPod still works, its just that I don't have a screen anymore. It makes it a bit hard to pick a song, and to see what song is playing, but it still works nonetheless.

Being the optimistic *cough cough* person that I am, I have still managed to see this bad situation in a good light. I think that this will give me the opportunity to regain my love for songs that were on my iPod but I never really listened too. I'm sure a lot of people are the same. Whenever they add a new album, that album is almost constantly played, and all the other couple of thousand of songs are neglected. So I figured that if I couldn't pick what I was listening to, I would just have it on random and listen to everything.

After 24 hours I realised two things about myself. The first is that I have a really unique selection of music. The second is that I have really bad taste in music. Well not bad, but rather embarrassing to other people. It's a collection of musicals, camp classics, gay icons, new pop/R 'n B and the occasional cover band rock song. Sometimes even I found myself getting embarrassed whenever a certain song came on, and wanted to be able to see the screen so I could make sure the next one wasn't as bad, in case anyone around me could hear it.

All the more reason why I need to buy a new one. Oh and I saw that at J.B. the new 4 GB Nano was marked down from $199 to $197! It must be a sign!!

I recently got asked if I wanted kids. Now this question is usually really easy for some people to answer but for me, and other people in my situation, it can be a bit hard. When I got asked, it made me wonder heaps about it, so I thought I would blog my feelings on the situation.

For starters, I am aware that I can't have kids naturally with my partner. Unless in the future, they make a way to have a baby without needing a woman or a test-tube, but the likelihood of that is very slim. The fact that I can't do this, is a major deterrent in wanting to have kids. Mainly because the child would only be a biological part of one of its parents. This could lead to arguments in the future as to who the real parent is, etc.

I also don't want to bring a child up in an environment where the child would be affected. Not because I would be a bad father, but because it the child had two dads, in current society, the likelihood of a child getting picked on it at school would be high. I don't want a child to be segregated in school for something that they have no control over, and something that isn't their fault.

I thought maybe raising a kid on my own. This would mean that I would instantly be single forever, seeing that I'm sure there isn't a lot of guys that would want to hook up with someone with a kid. Maybe if I was a married straight guy, and the other guy enjoyed that kind of thing, but I think for a single gay guy raising a child of their own would have slim pickings.

But before thinking about how to raise the child, I need to think about how I'm going to 'make' it, so to speak. If I was with someone, would be play rock-paper-scissors to find out who gets to be the 'real' father? Do we both contribute and see who is the fastest? Do we use some random woman that we don't even know? Use a best girlfriend? Do I adopt?

So many different things that need to be considered. Before you start thinking that I've lost my mind, I don't intend on running out and adopting children. Its just one of the many things that run through my head, and I figure its better to let them out here, then to leave them in there.

I think kids would be nice in the future, at the moment I don't see it as a possibility though.

Or should that be proud and queer?

Over the last week or so, I've gotten the same type of feedback from people that I've recently met. People who have never heard of or met AdamMac before, and their reactions were exactly the same.

Apparently I'm really loud. I've known for a while that I'm loud, outspoken, and bitchy, but I didn't think that it would make someone base their whole first opinion on me. Okay, so maybe I'm exaggerating just a little bit, of course I knew someone would.

Its just the type of person that I am. Loud and in your face. I don't usually hold back when discussing something that I'm passionate about, and if you get me worked up, be prepared for good debate. Although I admit that I'm pretty bitchy, I know this, sometimes its done on purpose whereas other times it just happens. I also have to admit that sometimes I hold back in what I want to say. Sometimes I wish I could just say stuff to get it off my chest, but I think too much about what may happen if I say it, people getting hurt etc.

Through my recent youtube searching, I've found this thing that airs on Comedy Central where they 'roast' celebrities. Its pretty entertaining, who doesn't love seeing Pamela Anderson being verbally abused and just having to sit there and take it? I'd wanna have a roast with a panel of people that I could select. That way I can say whatever I want about them, and have a reason to do it. Mainly so that I could say some things that I really couldn't say to them, well not including drunken dials which reminds me, I haven't done one of those for a while*.

I'd also wanna do a roast thing, because it gives those people a chance to say stuff about me, and I'd love to know what people have to same about me without having to hold back. Who knows, maybe I might organise one of these in the future**.

I also have a new idol when it comes to being a bitch, move over mum I found someone worse than you! Her name is Sarah Silverman. She crosses the line, that many people tip-toe up to and then run away. Her recent performance at the MTV Video Music Awards was inspiring.

A small snapshot of the 'secret blog'/book I'm writing. No its not all in purple, there are no colours in it actually, I thought I'd just make a little montage for you to look at.

When I get drunk, I: Can become loving, or in some cases really abusive!

Do you talk about Religion or Deep meaning thoughts?: Ummmm Would you consider the importance of Beer in ones life a deep and meaning thought?

Do you Cry?: All the time. This bitch isn't afraid to show emotion.

Do you get Angry?: As above.

Do you Vomit? : It hasn't happened for a while though, ah good times, good times, great classic hits

After 7 beers are you drunk?: Umm I would be very close to it, if not dancing over the line of complete stupidity. Oh and when I say dancing, I mean full blown boot-scooting, 5-6-7-8'ing dancing!

After 1 shot of 151 you are? After any shot I'm always looking at Jo and saying 'Why?'

Your favorite drink is?: Do I have to have a favourite? I don't want any of them getting angry with me if I don't say them.

Tequila does what to you? Gets me drunk?!?! I thought that was the point.

Whiskey makes you?: As above!

Who do you drink with? : Anyone who is willing to go for the journey that is "The Many Emotions of AdamMac'.

Vodka makes you?: Dance

Do you smoke when you drink? : Ummm wouldn't liquid put me out if I was on fire :S

On the rocks or straight up?: Either or. Does it really matter in the long run?

Do you Pass Out?: No, I just lose all memory of the night. Thats if its a good night anyway! Ah, good times, good times, great classic hits!

Do you drink girly drinks?: Why do they have to be called girly drinks? Can't they be called pretty colourful drinks instead?

Do you drink alone? : Look at pics on MySpace, do you see 'Audition for AA'? Well lets just say, there was no-one around when those pics were taken!

Worst Drink you have ever had?: I honestly can't remember, because Jo would normally make me shot something else to wash it done.

Do you play drinking games?: Ummm, I like to call them drunken challenges, because I usually don't know the rules most of the time, and I'm too drunk to care.

Drunk Phone Calls to people?: Oh, I have drunk and dialled a many times, and then usually fallen asleep to whoever I'm talking to!

Drink and Drive? : Nope! Good boy!

What is your favorite beer?: Carlton. Cheap and nasty, just like the bitch I drink it with. Love ya Lou!

What is your favorite mixed drink?: Smirnoff

What is your favorite shot?: Hmmmm I've got a soft spot for the cowboy, must have to do with its name?

What will you NOT drink?: Ummmm I don't know!

Are you a lightweight? : Does this mean if I skinny or not? LOU HELP!

Do you like the drinks with the little umbrellas?: Oh, they aren't good. Yes they are pretty, but I usually end up stabbing myself in the head when I try and wear them as hats!

Do you ever drink Bacardi Silver? : Probably.

Do you like frozen drinks?: Who doesn't like a good brain freeze when their drunk!

Do you drink liquor straight? : If by straight you mean straight of the bottle, then yes. Although that was the time when my friend Vodka made me forget the night when I tried that last time.

Do you ever drink out of the bottle?: Hehehehe. As above.

Have you ever had a jagerbomb?: Ah, the god old Jagerbomb. Always the turning point in the night, it either makes it really good, or really bad!

Are you drunk right now?: No, but a shot of something might actually make me sleep!

Do you consume more than 2 alcoholic beverages a day? Not a day.

Do you drink a lot of wine?: Gotta love cheap Brown Brothers Moscato

When is the last time you drank?: Weekend

Have you ever thrown up from drinking?: Yeppo, though not proud to admit it!

Ever done a Keg Stand?: Unfortunately, no.

Name someone that will repost this drinking survey?: Lou, because she is like me!

Ever been streaking while drinking?: Yeah

Failed any college courses due to alcohol alone?: No, but that would have been a good excuse!

Ever woken up & said "dude where's my car? : Nope. Because if I have my car, I'm not drinking :P

Ever carried someone due to their drunkenness?: I think so, but I'm usually drunk too, so I think I have super strength. One of the many qualities I have when drunk.

Have you ever cleaned up a friends puke?: Yeah, when people have chucked in my car!

Puked in a friend's car? : Nope.

Ever drank more beers than years?: I think so if you mean age, but if you mean by the actual year, well 2007 is a lot!

Ever smash a beer bottle when mad? : Yeah I have! But it was mainly for shock value and my own entertainment!

Sometimes things happen and I can't help but laugh. Over the last week, I've been reading stuff about Matrix schemes and Pyramid schemes on WikiPedia, yeah I know such an interesting life that I lead. I was actually quite astounded to know how some people have set up such elaborate schemes, but also the fact that people would actually fall for it.

After reading about some of the schemes, I was wondering if they still existed and read on WikiPedia that they still were going on, but surprised that people would still fall for it.

Then yesterday, I received something odd in the mail. It was a handwritten envelope. Now I never receive anything in the post with a handwritten address, mainly because the only thing I receive in the post is bills. So this one was a bit weird.

When I opened it up, I burst into laughter. Someone had sent this get rich quick scheme, about how I can make $70 000 from just doing one mail out. All I had to do was say thank you to the previous person who sent it to me, by sending them $10. Then I had to resend the letter to 200 random people and wait for the money to roll in. Seriously, how many people would do this?

I'm tempted to go to some sort of regulatory body about it. I love the fact that it can guarantee that by doing the mail out I would get a minimum $70 000. I'm trying to do the math, and it just doesn't work out :P If I send it to 200 people and they all send back $10, that would equate to $2 000. Now majority of people would be like me and not do anything about it, so even if 10 people sent one back it would give me $100. Now take into consideration the amount of stamps needed, envelopes, paper and ink needed, that's one big heap of expenses.

I wonder how they can guarantee this, and tell me it isn't legal?!? Maybe I should mail them out some information from previous court cases where the guys running these schemes were fined! And if people send out letters thinking they are making money, can they too be fined? I wonder...

I'm still in shock. I'm still trying to recover my breath. I witnessed something which i thought I would never see in my entire life....

I saw him without his mask on!

I know, I know. But I dare not talk about it here, for who knows what may happen if he so happens to read this and find out I told everyone his true identity!

I'm addicted to both of them. MySpace I'm addicted to a little bit more, mainly because I've had it longer, but in the short time that I've had a facebook, I'm surprised at how much I'm actually getting into it.

Each of them have their own pros and cons. Each one has something that makes me like a little bit better than the other one. By doing this post, it just highlights the fact that I have no life whatsoever!

The thing that I like about facebook is all the applications you can add. I'm loving scrabble on there, as well as the vampire application. For some reason, its really exciting to know that I'm turning people into vampires and making my own little army.

The other thing that I like about facebook is the ability to stalk your friends. Ummm.... That came out a little bit wrong. I meant to say, it's not to know what your friends are up to and who they are talking too, and who they have added as friends, etc. Ok, so maybe still seeming just a little bit wrong.

The thing I don't really like about facebook, and where MySpace wins, is that you can't show your own personal flair on Facebook. I mean in terms of profile layout and design. On facebook, its pretty much set out for you and you can just move things around on your page.

As you've probably guessed, I love MySpace for that exact reason. I'm able to express myself via my own little page. I think that also because I've been using MySpace a lot longer, I feel more comfortable using it. Its a lot more user friendly than what facebook is, just ask Jo!

From a stalkers point of view**, MySpace is better if you wanna be able to look at random people and get carried away with their friends. Whereas if you wanna keep the stalking to your own circle, facebook is probably the way to go.

Until they combine the two, I'll have to stick with swapping between, as I can't see myself giving up either one of them anytime soon.

*stolen from Jedica
**we are talking the nice harmless stalker that mainly checks things for gossip purrposes

I don't think I've been so excited and so frightened by something at the same time.

I've applied to go to WAAPA.

For starters, I just wanna say that it isn't because of my weird obsession with Hungry Jacks that I've decided to go to a school with a name that reminds of their burger. Seriously. I'm in love with Bacon Deluxe burgers, whoppers are yuck!

For those who don't know, WAAPA stands for the Western Australian Academy of Performing Arts. Two things should spring up in your mind when you read this. The first being that why on Earth would AdamMac be applying for a course at a school of Performing Arts. Well, its not to be on stage, but its an Advanced Diploma of Stage Management. The second thing, is the whole 'Western Australian' thing. Yes, if I got in, it would mean I would have to move. This is probably the most frightening thing about it.

From speaking to one of the lectures of the course, I don't think I've been so happy in a while. I called my mum to talk to her and she was shocked that I sounded so happy on the phone. I also spoke to some other people about it, who have all said in the past that I should look at doing something in this area professionally, and they too could tell of my excited tone, but I think they too were excited.

I don't know if I'll get in, as places are extremely limited, but I figure if I wanna do something that I love, I'm going to need to do some sacrificing and takes some plunges.

If I get in, the course starts in February, which means that as of February, I'll be in W.A. for three years. Thats a scary thought too... The worst thing about it would be leaving my family and my friends behind. I love my friends, oh and of course I love my family, so I think it would be a bit concerning to move to the other side of the country, but I know that I'd keep in contact with them!

Obviously if I got in, my blogging frequency would be drastically increased, as would my MySpace and MSN involvement. But I don't wanna be too hopeful at the moment, and rather just sit and wait.

I thought I would just let you guys know of a possible move early next year.

AdamMac.

Quick update...

AdamMac won't be appearing on MSN or MySpace for about two weeks. If I do jump on, its only quickly to check something.

The reason is because I'm staying in Williamstown for a couple of days this week, and next week is the Werribee Secondary College musical, so I'll be a busy little beaver.

What does this mean to you?

Well nothing really, but if you need to get in contact with me, make sure you email it to my hotmail address, and not leave me a MySpace comment because I may not read it until its too late!

Till I make a return, love you all chickens :P

AdamMac.

So it's been a while since my last post, and I apologise... Been a little busy lately, and the computer is playing up at home at the moment, so that's not a lot of fun.

Heaps of have been happening lately, not that I can go through much, because I think of too many things to blog at once, and by the time I sort out what I'm going to write, I either forget or can't be bothered. So I'll highlight quickly what has happened and what's happening...

• Job is going well, still settling in, but its all good :D
• Turned 21 + 1 on Tuesday, feeling a little bit old
• Been drinking maybe a bit too much lately, although I'm surprised at how much I drank last week and how little of a hangover I had
• UV party on Saturday should be fun
• Been scared out of my life on the last two Wednesday cruising with the girls after Parma night :S

I'll try and blog some more during the week, so keep coming back to see if there is any :D

Its slightly scary. In just over three weeks I will be 22 (or as I like to call it 21+1). It means that a. I'm no longer a 21 year old, and b. I'm only eight years from thirty!

At the moment I don't really know what I wanna do... Tossing up between a couple of ideas, but I have no idea. I'm no good at organising things, so I don't really know what to do.

At the moment, I'm thinking of doing something on the 13th, mainly because its a Friday and I reckon it would be cool to go out and get drunk. I'm also tossing up having some sort of theme, and getting everyone to get dressed up according to it and then going out.

If I was to do a theme thing, I reckon I would go with a UV type thing. If you look at the latest photo on the right, its of the top that I wore last time I went out, and needless to say I glowed! I reckon it would be cool if I could get a whole bunch of people to wear glowing clothes and that would be cool. Apparently you can also buy UV nail polish, lipstick and hair spray! It could be a good idea.

More than likely though, I'll probably just end up going out with a group of friends, the safest bet. Maybe even having dinner with people too would be cool...

Can you remember the good old computer days, where games were so addictive you would be stuck on them forever? No?!?! Well I can...

Growing up I used to use computer games as a form of escape, and everyone else was playing them, so I needed to as well. I have fond memories of all the games that I used to play, and found it amusing while talking to one of my friends, that growing up we used to play similar games.

Anything that was created by the company Bullfrog, I adored. They gave us some great games, and majority of them you can still play now.

The main reason why I've started thinking about these games again, is mainly because I recently brought ThemePark on the DS. I was exactly how I remembered it, and after playing it, I realised that I started doing exactly what I used to too... I started building the same way that I used to, and was following the same sort of pattern. It made me think about how much I had changed since I used to play these games.

Some of my favourite type of games where the ones where you looked down on a world and built things. The main ones being games like ThemePark, ThemeHospital, Transport Tycoon Deluxe, Warcraft and Dungeon Keeper. All of which I'm sure I wasted a fair bit of time on.

Okay, I've managed to do it again. Find another enjoyable and time consuming site thanks to PointlessSites.

This one is called Oceangram. Basically, its an online message in a bottle site, where you can put your own message in a bottle and send it out to the big virtual ocean, where it will end up at someone else's beach desktop.


Its pretty fun reading other people deep secrets. The best thing about it as well, is that you can add to other people's message and send them back on their merry way. If that person has set up tracking, they can always check up on their message and see if anyone has placed any comments on it. I recently sent out one, but there has been no comments yet.

One thing that I don't like about it though, is the ability to retire a message. This means that some prick can sit there all day and just retire them, instead of tossing them back into the ocean. If people write something personal, it should stay there!!!

If you wanna check it out yourself, just go down to the sidebar and click on Oceangram!

I know that you read this, and I know that you've always said why I never do a post about you, well now I'm going to!


If you haven't figured it out yet, this blog post is all going to be about my mum! Not your mum, but mine!

My mum is the unsung hero of our family. She does everything and anything imaginable. From cooking to cleaning, she does it all. She works her arse off at work, and yet still manages to find the time to organise everyone! I know how she manages to find the time, its because she doesn't spend anytime on herself. Whenever she does something, she always puts us in front of her, and makes sure we have everything before she gets things for herself.

At times, I know she must think that I don't love her, but I do. There isn't anyone out there who would come close to her. She is always there for me, always have been, and hopefully always will be. Whenever I need to shoulder to cry on, or a good bitch, I can always go to her.

Everyone says celebrities or sport stars are their heroes, but in my case it would be my mum*. She has been through so much in her life, and I admire that she was able to get through it all. If I turn out to be at least half as good a person as she is, then I'll be extremely happy.

So there you go, you finally got a post all about you :P

NB: If you don't know anything about the Peel case in the news recently, read this article to catch up on it here.

Seriously, I don't think that this is such a big deal... People have been putting up bulletins with petitions on MySpace and complaining about how unfair it all is.

I think that the media behind it, has caused a lot of confusion. Its not like the Peel is going to turn away every straight person that turns up. It will just be able to exercise its right if a large group of straight guys tried to get in for example.

The Peel would be stupid to turn away every girl that turned up. They would be doing something which is completely unethical, separating the fag and the fag hag! If they started doing this, the majority of guys who currently attend, would stop going and would go somewhere is!

Mainly, get over it. Its good that the Peel can now turn away big groups of straight people, seeing that what they said has a point. Straight people have how many clubs to go to????

I love going out and having fun. But I love dressing up and having fun even more. Me and Louie recently did that and boy did we have fun.

Louie got dressed up in her short short shorts, a white midori singlet, midori sunglasses, black vest, green bling!

I was dressed in a tight top with the sleeves rolled up and tucked under, so it looked sleeveless. I also had a yellow lei around my neck for the night, well until Louie broke it!!!! Okay, so maybe I didn't wear it like this photo, but I liked this photo, because she looks so happy in it! Come on, how can you not be happy wearing a lei????

I had a good time, except people kept trying to take it off and I was getting heaps of evil eyes. But they were mainly from girls who were just jealous that I had one and they didn't... BITCHES!

Now I feel the urge to be more creative when I go out. I'm in the mood, where I don't care what people think, I just go out and have fun!

As you are all pretty aware by now, I'm addicted to anything exciting and new on the internet. I recently stumbled across a website that I thought was really clever, so I thought I'd play around with it.

Its called FutureMe, and it basically lets you send an email to yourself in the future. You type the email, and then you put in what date you want the letter to be sent. You then can't see the letter until its sent to your inbox.

I played around with it, and sent myself one that I'll receive in 6 months. For those who don't know, I've recently got a new job at work, and I start that on Monday, so majority of the email was about how I'm feeling at the moment, and when I get the email in 6 months, hopefully I can look back at it and laugh!

Another great thing about the website is that it lets you read other peoples, well if they've selected public that is, and you can see what other people have sent to themselves, and when they want it sent to them....

Yeah, everyone looks up and then you have to try and figure out who thumbed you!

I'm addicted. Another musical to add onto the list. This one is awesome. I'm in love. I think I've listened to the album about 50 times on my iPod. The songs are catchy and fun, and it portrays a good message. The musical is called Spring Awakening and its currently at Broadway,

I'm also really excited because Wicked might be coming to Melbourne. I saw it on the news yesterday and screamed. Well not really screamed, but got a funny feeling on the inside. If it came to Melbourne, I'd would definitely go and see it.

The high school's musical is shaping up to be pretty good as well. Been helping out on Saturdays with the set, which is coming together. I'm Stage Managing it again, so that should be fun. Really looking forward to doing it again. The kids this year seem really nice and switched on, lets see how they go at the theatre!

Eurovision is over for another year, and as usual it provided me with many laughs. The first video is of the winners, Serbia. The next video is from the runners up, Ukraine.

From looking at the two videos, you can probably tell why I love it sooooo much.

I've been so preoccupied with trying to make my blog look good lately, that it totally slipped by that my last post was my 200th post! So first of all I just wanna say, 'WooHoo!'. To get to 200 blog posts is a very big thing for me, seeing that in the beginning, I really wasn't that interested in the whole blogging thing. Now though, I'm addicted to this and MySpace!

C Grade Personality has come a pretty long way since it started about 2 years ago. I think its finally getting to the point where I'm happy with the layout, and the way its set up. Maybe a few more things to tweak and it should be fine. If you have any suggestions, send them on :P Can you always click on the 'contact me' button in the header and shoot me an email.

So I've hit the 200 mark, what now for AdamMac I hear you all asking. Well, I think a couple of months ago, I bit off a bit more than I could chew with all the other internet accounts, i.e. flickr, Live Journal. I think I need to put more effort into those, and bring them up to scratch.

In terms of blogging, I'm currently tweaking the layout of a couple of blogs, before they are released. So as soon as I'm happy with them, they will be released. I'm thinking of making one a group effort, so I'll be needing some extra authors, so if your interested, stay tuned!

I just wanna say thanks to all the people that read this though. So, THANKS!

AdamMac

I recently found myself venturing out into the city to attend a birthday party at a place called Bang. I never been there before, and whenever I mentioned to someone that I was going there, I was usually met with a weird look on their face. Then asked a thousand questions about whether or not I knew what type of place that was, why I was going there, and people even told me on the day that I wasn't dressed for the occasion.

Now before you start getting the wrong idea, Bang is not an adult's club even though the name may suggest it. Bang is an emo/punk/metal/loud-crazy-dark-music club. Well I think thats the best kind of explanation for it. :S I was told that apparently I'm not emo enough to go to a club like Bang.

Apparently, if I wanted to be more emo, I should do the following things*:

• have a long fringe and brushed to the one side, dyed black and straightened
• wear a t-shirt complete with band insignia, tight black jeans with a studded belt and belt buckles
• have to be more candid about my emotions, be more sensitive, broken hearted, glum and depressed.

As you can probably imagine, being emo really isn't my thing. And as a matter of fact, I don't think I could ever be emo. Anyway, with all this new knowledge, I thought I was ready to head out to one of their clubs. I grabbed LouLou and we headed out into the city.

Sunday night saw AdamMac hitting the red carpet and attending the 2007 TV Week Logie Awards. Okay, so maybe that just made me sound like I was actually attending the event, I lie. I was one of those glorified bleachers, watching patiently from the side lines.

I got dressed up. Took my mum as my date, like every other famous person. Got to our seats and waited patiently for stars to arrive. All I wanted to do was see Naomi Robson and mum just wanted to see Rove. It took some time, but we eventually got to see them.

It was exciting sitting there thinking about which celebrity was going to get out of the next limo. It was also strange to actually see the red carpet up so close. It looks a LOT different to what it does on the tv. In real life, its completely crowded. Full of photographers, different celebs, cameramen, hosts and managers.

After seeing the logies I have a new goal. I wanna be one of the interviewers on the sidelines. I want to have a runner on the carpet, rounding up celebrities to come and talk to me. I want celebrities heading for me just as they get out of their car for an interview. Weird huh? But it just looked so much fun.

And now for some gossip:

• I love Avril, but please... Did she not know that she would be walking a red carpet? What on earth was she wearing?? Just because your down under, doesn't mean you can dress like you've just woken out of bed...
• A certain celebrity wasn't the friendliest on the red carpet. Ignoring the fans and not being the nicest of people towards the 'help' aren't very nice things to do, especially if said person was being nominated for a prestige award...

Okay, so Big Brother is back again. I did the ritual bitch session with my mum on the opening night. We did the whole, what is Gretel wearing? How on earth did that person get into Big Brother? Whose the fag? How's in the relationships?

I knew that I would get depressed watching it. Mainly because I had told myself that this year I was going to audition, I even got dressed and ready to go. But like most things, I chickened out and didn't go. So I sat and watched BB tonight and thought to myself, that could have been me...

I don't know if I would have made it through the audition process though. I'm hoping that they audition next year, if they do then I'll have to go, and I'll make sure that I get someone else to come with me so that I have to go...

Anyway, I don't know who I'm a fan of so far, no-one has really stuck out. I don't think I like any of them. :( I suppose we will just have to wait and see...

I knew it wouldn't take that long. I've unblocked. I feel the urge to blog again. How lucky for you all. A fair bit has happened since I got the blog. One of the thoughts that I've had running through my head is the one that I blogged about during the break, and its not what everyone thinks it refers to, but something else.

The past weekend was really fun. I had an awesome time. Paid for it today though, having spent the majority of the day in bed because I couldn't be bothered doing anything. This is what happened on my weekend, if you hold your mouse of the picture it gives you a quick description of whats

Do you ever feel like you are hanging on to something in the hope that it real return to how you remember it? Over the last couple of weeks I've started to realize that I do this with a lot of things.

Last night it hit me, and it hit me hard. I can't keep hoping that things well go back to how they were, how I want them to be. People move on, things change. I'm starting to learn that I can't change it.

I realized when I first moved out of home that I had a problem with hanging on to things. I'm a hoarder. The amount of crap that I had was ridiculous. It was rather scary. Things from primary school that I had made, or even wrote. I had saved old diaries, old school books.

Its not only at home where I do this, but also at work. I have every diary that I have ever used at work. I still have my training folder, complete with all the drawings I did in it and notes that I had wrote. I also have some writing pads that I use during calls in my drawers. I finally got rid of some of them, but it took some time.

Its a problem that I have, I'll openly admit it. But I need to do something about it, and with some things at the moment, I need to realize that I can't go back to what I want, I need to either get used to it, or leave it. Its a decision I don't want to have to make, but I think it made itself last night.

AdamMac

Every couple of months it happens. I get bloggers block. I have too many ideas to blog about, and I get confused as to which one to do, I then take too long deciding which one I want to do, and then do none of them.

Also at the moment, my mind isn't in the right spot to be blogging. Need to settle some things out first so I can get my head a bit more clear.

I'm not stopping blogging, I'll just be taking a break over the next couple of weeks, with maybe one or two small posts.

AdamMac.

I went clubbing last night, and had something happen to me which never happens. I guy tried to pick me up. Let's set the scene:

AdamMac was standing in a hallway, after his friends had gone upstairs. A big bunch of people squeeze their way through the tiny hallway. AdamMac is trying to use his phone to text people, and one of the guys squeezing through comes up next to him and says, 'Kiss?'.

2007 was always going to be the year of travel for AdamMac. I've toyed with heaps of ideas, Europe, US and now Bali. Contiki was always going to be the option, I just didn't know which one. Each one has their pros and cons, and when I've thought about it, I really wanna go to Bali. Contiki have an awesome resort, with awesome rooms and awesome facilities. Woah, too much use of the word awesome, so I might not use it again.

I don't think I'd have enough money for Europe. To do Europe properly I'd need more time and more money. That would be awesome great! To back pack around Europe at my own accord and just see everything. So maybe that can be a longer term goal.

Apparenlty the US is a lot like Australia, in terms of culture and everything, and for my first real trip I wanna be somewhere where it is culturally different. I think thats why I choose Bali over the US.

I'm hoping to travel later this year, just need someone to go with, but hopefully I've already found that person.

AdamMac.

A lot of people ask me why my name of my blog is C Grade Personality. The main reason why this came about is that I used to do a radio show with Meghan B. and my mum used to call me a C Grade Personality because I was like a D Grade Star. Also at the time I was doing some amateur theatre, which helped her in her reasoning.

I haven't really done that much lately to keep up my C Grade status. I've been lazy. But that's all going to change.

You may have noticed a slight change in my blog layout. Well maybe not that slight. I've put little tabs at the top of my blog to re-direct you to some other pages that I've set up to be all about me! These are the sites that I've created accounts on LiveJournal, MySpace, vod:pod, and Flickr.

I'm still going to be doing my blog, but I've also going to start using all the other sites as well.

Day 20.

I've made it half way through my lent. That means for the last 20 days, I haven't eaten anything with chocolate in it, or purchased anything from one of the major fast food outlets. I'm proud of myself, and shocked that I've even made it this far.

So far it's been a challenge. I've never really realised how many things chocolate is actually in, but over the last couple of weeks, its been quite clear. A lot of ice cream places don't have a lot of variety for people who don't eat chocolate. Neither do some restaurants.

I've also found it difficult not to just pull into a drive-thru and get tea on the way home. Or early in the morning, if I'm feeling peckish, I can no longer grab a Sausage McMuffin!

Well I've made it this far, and no matter how much I'm tempted, I won't succumb. I'm going to last the forty days or die trying.

AdamMac.

Over the last week, I've needed to get an elevator to get out of the carpark. Every day this week, I've gotten the same elevator. The elevator with no lights. Now I park on level 12 and I have to go all the way down to the bottom level to get out of the car park.

Now I would be fine if I just had to go in the elevator and have a nice quick trip down to the bottom and not have anyone else in it, but every day I get on the elevator by myself, but come level 10, someone else jumps on.

It can be very daunting to be standing in a black box with someone else, with the only light being the numbers above the door slowly counting downing to 1. I also get paranoid that they can hear the music that my iPod is playing, because sometimes when its on random, it plays songs that I'm usually embarrassed of. So I have to turn that off before I get on.

So, basically for everyday this week, I've been travelling in a black box with some complete stranger, in complete silence. For some reason its a bit hard to make small talk when you are alone in a tiny black box. Well it is for me, when the over person in the box is usually a fat, 40 something, balding guy. If it was a young, attractive guy, I'm sure it would be a different story :P

AdamMac.

Forgive me father for I have sinned. For about a month now, every Sunday I've been indulging in a simple guilty pleasure. It's true, every Sunday I watch 'Australia's got Talent'.

I don't know why I watch it. Some of the people on it scares me, but some of the others are quite entertaining. I love seeing them just burn out, and others I sit there thinking, hang on they were actually quite good. I want one of the buzzers for me at home, so I can sit there and buzz the people I don't like, then have a big red cross come up on the screen with AdamMac written underneath it.

I know that they can't hear me on the television and that all the rehearsals have probably been pre-recorded so it probably doesn't matter if I scream at my tv, but I'll still do it. I still want to have my input one way or another, even if its not being listened to.

Nothing in the Australian series has really grabbed my attention, nothing like one that I saw on the American version.

After its been displayed on my MSN for quite some time now, a lot of people have been asking why its been there. It's not there because of my love for 'Bring It On'. It's not there because I walk around saying it all the time. It's there because someone once said it to me to be inspiration.

I've been thinking about it lately, and I think that in a lot of things that I do, I need to be more aggressive. I need to be forward in my approach of things. No longer will I just sit back and wait for things to come to me, because really, when does that ever happen. I've decided that if I want something so badly, or not even so badly, I will still be straight forward and try to get what I want.

So basically, no more pussy footing around, if I want something, I'm going to get it!

AdamMac

Very excited! I got a wireless router for the house today, so now I can access my internet from any room in the house, and so can my Wii!

Still trying to figure out how Meghan can use it, so she can access it as well... But that can wait till tomorrow.

I've got to run anyway, I have to be at my friends place in like 20 mins :S

AdamMac

I've been addicted for awhile, but over the last couple of weeks, I think I've become even more addicted. I love poker. Mainly online poker, and on tournaments. I've only really gotten addicted again since my friend has started making me play again. Its fun. I sit there and try and pick what other peoples hands are, trying to work out their game play.

I don't play for a real money. I only play with fake money. Its funny because I usually always go all in and then lose my money. Then, I just refresh it. I know it doesn't seem very practical, but its lots of fun. One of them would only let me refresh 3 times in the hour, so as you can imagine, I don't play that one anymore.

I don't know what it is about it, but I really like it. I haven't played it in real life for a while. Last time I played it I was a tournament at some pub and that was really fun. I was winning heaps, but then I wanted to go home, so I just went all in. When they flipped the cards over, the people on the table couldn't believe I went all in. I think I went all in on a 9 5, so people around me were freaking out. That's one reason why I don't like playing real life, people take it too seriously.

I wanna start playing again with my friends, but I just need my friends to want to play with me as well.

AdamMac

I've been watching Queen as Folk season 2 lately, and I just watched an episode where they were discussing the pride march and I got me thinking. The pride march happened this year in St Kilda and I didn't attend. I also didn't attend the big carnival to celebrate the ending of Midsumma. As a matter of fact I didn't really do anything for Midsumma, this year or any previous year.

Mardi Gra is also coming up this weekend, another event that I'm not going too. I had someone say to me that I don't participate in enough gay events. Apparently I need to be in more active in things to show my pride. I think that this is just crap. I don't have to walk around wearing a rainbow coloured vest to show that I'm proud of being a gay guy.

I wanna be able to show how proud I am sometimes, but its just hard. For example, walking around on a date with a guy, and watching all the other people on their dates holding hands, made me wanna do it. But I couldn't do it. I couldn't bring myself to walk around the city, hand in hand. I didn't want to have to put up with people staring and making snide comments.

After that night I was really annoyed. Not because I didn't do it, I just felt like I couldn't do it. I was jealous of all the other couples walking around showing their feelings for one another, and there I was too frightened to do anything.

I may not march in parades or wear rainbow tops, but I've got pride, I just don't want a good night to be ruined by other people's homophobia.

AdamMac

I tested my willpower this morning. I tested to see how far I could push it, and well I failed. My attempt at self restraint was pushed to the limit and that limit was tested with a lamp. After walking through the whole of IKEA for the first time, I had got only what I told myself I would get. I was walking confidently towards the checkout with only the things that I needed when I saw the thing that would push me over my limit.

It was a simple green lamp. I already own a lamp. As a matter of fact, I own two. One is boring and crappy, but its been good to me over the last couple of years. The other is a lava lamp. Now the lava lamp hasn't worked for a long time, but it still takes pride of place on one of my bedside tables. But for some reason, I couldn't walk out of the shop without it. I didn't know why, but for some reason, I just needed it.

I'm very happy with the whole selections that I made at IKEA. My bedroom looks quite snazzy if I don't say so myself. I did spend the majority of my afternoon organising it, but now I feel better about the whole room. It looks so much better that what I thought it would.

Now, I just have to plan my next trip to IKEA. After walking through the show room, I kept seeing more and more things that I like. Only thing is, I need to have someone else with me, I don't wanna walk out with another lamp.

AdamMac

**Warning: The following post contains pictures of blood!**

I'm sick of people constantly commenting on how much of a girly sport softball is. It's not that girly, it can get quite rough sometimes. Now I realise why it could be portrayed as a girly sport, seeing that it was set up as an indoor version as baseball, but when you play in a game of men's softball it can get quite rough and competitive. The list of injuries that people can get from softball are quite long. Someone in the team a couple of years ago, snapped his foot as he slid into a base. Well what happened is that he snapped the bones that connect his foot and leg, and the only thing that was hanging it together was his skin and some ligaments.

Today I had my first injury of 2007. It wasn't much, just a grazed knee, but it looks pretty impressive if I don't say so myself. Always been a big fun and the whole blood and guts thing. I didn't even realise that it was bleeding until I had been sitting on the bench for a couple of minutes and looked down at the patch in my knee of my softball pants. I noticed a bit of blood trickling out, so I thought I'd better check to see if it was okay, and well I'm pretty sure you can tell by the picture what I found. I pretty much went home to mum and got her to help me clean out the dirt in it, and to put special cream and stuff on it.

But its not all that bad. Keeley felt good that she was able to recognise my pain because she had just recently hurt her thumb. You can just see the mark on her thumb in that picture. So it was comforting to know that there were other people in my situation in the house.

Well I was thinking of doing something tonight, but seeing that I have to keep my knee uncovered, I don't think it would be appropriate to turn up to a club with a scabby knee. Not pretty at all.

AdamMac

I took the train for the first time in about 18 months. I was like a born again train virgin. I remembered to buy the ticket and validate it, seeing that I have still been using public transport in St Kilda (trams), but little things I had forgotten about.

I couldn't remember the order of stations. This pretty much devastated me, seeing that I used to be able to say the order in my sleep. After a couple of years of catching the train into the city, on a daily basis its something you just learn. But I've forgotten it. It was quite sad!

Also, I forgot how packed they could be and how rude some people are. Why can't people just let other people off before they start barging their way in? Its just common courtesy.

I've also lost complete balance when I was on the train. I felt so sorry for the poor school girl that I kept bumping into every time the train jolted. I did apologise heaps though, lets just hope that her feet don't bruise*. I felt so awkward being thrown from side to side. I looked like an idiot.

Well fingers crossed when I go home tonight I should be better. What am I saying, I'll be drunk... So for those wanting some entertainment on the way home, you can catch me drunken and disorderly on a train out to Werribee!

*This is why you shouldn't wear open toed shoes on a train!