One + 1 = Thr3e

I've been watching Queen as Folk season 2 lately, and I just watched an episode where they were discussing the pride march and I got me thinking. The pride march happened this year in St Kilda and I didn't attend. I also didn't attend the big carnival to celebrate the ending of Midsumma. As a matter of fact I didn't really do anything for Midsumma, this year or any previous year.

Mardi Gra is also coming up this weekend, another event that I'm not going too. I had someone say to me that I don't participate in enough gay events. Apparently I need to be in more active in things to show my pride. I think that this is just crap. I don't have to walk around wearing a rainbow coloured vest to show that I'm proud of being a gay guy.

I wanna be able to show how proud I am sometimes, but its just hard. For example, walking around on a date with a guy, and watching all the other people on their dates holding hands, made me wanna do it. But I couldn't do it. I couldn't bring myself to walk around the city, hand in hand. I didn't want to have to put up with people staring and making snide comments.

After that night I was really annoyed. Not because I didn't do it, I just felt like I couldn't do it. I was jealous of all the other couples walking around showing their feelings for one another, and there I was too frightened to do anything.

I may not march in parades or wear rainbow tops, but I've got pride, I just don't want a good night to be ruined by other people's homophobia.

AdamMac