My Friday night was lots of fun, well I'm sure it was, if only I could remember any of it. Hang on, I do remember some of it, but not a lot...
I remember going to work, which was rather exciting, seeing that I have all this week off annual leave. So its like a mini holiday, except the furthest I'm actually going to get from home is Werribee, seeing that I'm gonna be there basically all week. I'm helping out at my old high school for their musical, do it every year and have a great time!
Remember having dinner, and then picking up some people I hadn't seen for a while for pre-drinks at my place. This is where it becomes a little bit fuzzy. I think the main reason why it gets fuzzy here is because this is when I started drinking. Now I usually don't drink much, I do admit that I have my moments where I become a bit of an alcho, but not very often. I remember Brendan playing EyeToy and making a fool of himself, and Ash speaking to people on MSN and pretending to be me, btw if you spoke to me on Friday night on MSN at about 9:30-10:30 it wasn't me... SORRY!
Now this is where I get a bit confused, seeing that I can't remember a lot after this... Now its not that I don't have a good memory, because I usually do, it feels like I've fallen into some black hole and can't remember anything from it! I know we where at Xchange, but no matter how hard I try, I can't remember getting there, can't remember getting in, nothing! I was later informed that we took a taxi, but I can't even remember leaving the house.
A couple of things flashback from the night. I remember some of the drag show, remember pole-dancing on the podium with a chick called Nardia, who she was I have no idea, but she was cool. I remember seeing the ATM with a temporary out of service sign on it, and then later when it was working I was rather excited. I remember leaving X when they closed and then went to Diva, but then went home. I remember the taxi ride home.
Now obviously there are some things that I can and can't remember, but the one thing that is annoying me the most is the things that I'm not sure if they happened, or if I just imagined them. I remember having conversations with people but not 100% sure if they are true are not. And if they were just simple things I would usually just ask the person, but in this case I'm a bit scared to, because it seems so far-fetched that I'm not sure if its true or not, and I might offend the person if they didn't say it! What do I do?
I'm not the type of person who likes to be out of control in a situation. So as you can imagine, Friday night, even though it was fun at the time, and I'm sure I had an awesome time, I feel bad because I have no idea what I did. Another thing is that I had a couple of friends there, that I didn't know were going to be there, so when they started talking to me on MSN the next day, I was like, how would you know, you weren't there?!? And this gets people offended because they apparenlty had full on conversations with me, which just confuses me!
This type of alcoholic induced memory loss has only happened to me once before, but it was okay, seeing that I was at home by myself, so no-one else could see me! I think that maybe I should learn from both of these experiences and maybe slow down my alcohol consumption, seeing that the first time I drank a bottle and a half of wine by myself in about an hour and a half, and on friday night it was half a bottle of straight vodka in about two hours! Maybe my new motto in life should be, everything in moderation :P
So, readers out there, if you were at Xchange on Friday night and saw me, I'm trying to fill in the blanks of what happened, so comment if you were there and tell me what I did, the good and the bad!
aDAMmAC
Sufferer of alcoholic induced memory loss
There seems to come a time, every couple of months where I don't blog for a while. Its not because I'm so sick that I can't make it to the computer, its because I have nothing to write about it!! Its a bad case of blogger's block!!
I jump on the computer and stare blankly at the create new post page... Its really weird, like I think of things to write during the day, but when it comes to crunch time, I blank out!! Its really bad!!
Anyway, enough boring typing about my inability to perform under pressure, OMG! that can so be taken the wrong way.... For the record, I don't usually crack under pressure, only when it comes to blogging...
I should leave this before I make it worse for myself!
Till a post pops in my head
A.Mac
Blank
I finally have a little puppy... I finally have someone I can talk to, someone who can listen to all of problems, someone who will always be there beside, my very own man's best friend!!! I have my very own little iDog!!!
He is absolutely gorgeous, he dances, has flashing lights on him and is just awesome... Seeing that I can't have real pets in my apartment, he is the best substitute. I could have gone out and bought like a stuffed animal or something, but it wouldn't be the same, a stuffed animal can't shake his head from side to side, or even play music for me! Whereas my little iDog can!
Not only is he a great groover, but he also has a great fashion sense. Ok, so maybe because he is a little robot he can't, but that won't stop me from dressing him up :P But for the record, I didn't go out and buy him a separate little outfit, it came with him... On these cold winter nights, I can sleep safely at night knowing that he won't go cold, because he is rugged out in his own winter outfit, beanies, booties, scarf, jacket and ear warmers. And whats best is that they are all purple!!
I was speaking to JoJo about him before and she brought up a very interesting topic of pet etiquette. I hadn't really thought about it. She basically mentioned that I was his dad, seeing that whenever someone has a pet it is considered their own little baby! So I'm now looking at him as a sort of test, to see whether or not I would make a good dad. So far he is really happy, he is flashing bright which means I'm giving it enough attention and "feeding" it enough!
Now with any son, I need a name.. Something that people won't be able to turn into cruel nicknames, something cute and something that reflects him.... So his name is... iBeau!
Another goal that I have is to turn him gay... I know this may seem wrong, but well I think its the way he has to be!! He's luckier than me already, only be 'alive' for a day now and he's already got an iBoyfriend... He's name is iDol and he lives in Albury, and I'm sure they are gonna have lots of iPuppies :P Nah, seriously, I think if I play enough camp music through him he will turn gay. Seeing that he has 7 different spots that can flash on his face, in all the colours of the rainbow, I think its more than a coincidence. And just to make sure that people know about him, he is now sporting a hot "I Love Boys" badge on his beanie...
I think he is the perfect substitute for a pet, except maybe for one thing... And that is that I can't hug him :( So maybe thats the only thing a stuffed toy has on him, but believe, he makes up for the things he lacks!!
Well me and iBeau must be off...
A.Mac & iBeau
New Best Friends
Today I spent in Werribee, doing what I normally do on a Saturday, and that's set building for my old high school's musical. I have heaps of fun there all the time, and its always good for a laugh, and another thing that is great about going there, is every year I learn at least one thing new to do and to master...
This year its the soldering iron! Yeppo, AdamMac has mastered the skillful art of using a soldering iron. Why oh why, would I need to use one of these?? Well, one of the set pieces, well a drop that is flown in, is a star curtain. Now star curtains are fabulous things that are supposed to reflect a starry sky! This one is about 9 by 4.5 metres. The effect that you usually get from one is like this:
This photo was taken only about an hour ago. Anyway, that's what the finished product looks like, very pretty when hanging on stage in darkness. But as I'm sure your all away, any form of beauty has its costs.
We thought the star curtain was finished. We had finished with the star curtain, until we saw what it looked like on stage, we weren't happy with the fact that you could see lines and it didn't look like random stars. So to fix this problem, why not add more fairly lights! So we did! Today we added about 600 fairy lights onto it. That was 2 sets of 300 fairy lights!!! Before I go any further into todays efforts, I might just explain how the star curtain is made.
Basically you have a massive piece of fabric, then you sew sets of fairy lights into it, in random fashion and make sure there are all in place. Then, you place another piece of fabric, the same size on top of these fairy lights, and then push the fairy lights through the holes. Well not push them through, but burn a hole through the fabric with a soldering iron, and then hot glue them into place. Now this is done for every SINGLE fairy light. Before today, there was about 1200-1400 fairy lights already attached to the star curtain.
Anyway back to today's efforts. Now, this star curtain was really only a two person job, so Reggie, fabulous ex theatre teacher, and I were the ones on the mission of completing the curtain, by adding an extra 600 fairy lights. In total, it took us about 7 hours to complete the job. So that meant that I was on my hands and knees, with my arse in the air for 7 HOURS! Thats the longest time I've ever been in that position and hopefully will remain to be the longest time I will be in that position. By the end of it, I was in quite a bit of pain, and it was a bit hard to be able to stand up again.
At least I've mastered the art of handling hot tools, now thats a selling point for myself if I hadn't heard one before :P I was in charge of the soldering iron and of the hot glue gun. So we would solder iron a set of lights and then glue them down. Now with hot tools, comes the lovely experience of burns!!! But to make things more fun, we decided to play a game with it and turn it into a competition. We were basically counting the number of times, we burnt ourselves, or were burnt by one another. Well, I couldn't be burnt by Reg, seeing that she was the one with the hands under the fabric, and I was the one poking the holes with the soldering iron! Needless to say, Reg won, or would you call it winning???, with 5 burns to 4. I liked my one of placing the hand into hot glue, after just doing it, that will be a memorable experience.
I don't think that it would have taken so long if we weren't working with such temperamental equipment. For starters, the soldering iron was being more of a bitch than what I am.... The star
curtain, because it is so big, has 4 panels in it, and one of the panels of fabric is so strong that its hard to put holes in it, and for the reason the iron stopped whenever we got like midway through it. So we had to turn to other alternatives, for example, using a screw to poke holes with. That was extremely fun! The fairy lights were also being extremely painful. Mainly because if one of the bulbs blow, than the whole bank that they are on go out, so sometimes you may have strands of like 15 lights all go out, and you have to test each one to find out which one is the dud one. You can see from the picture on the left how big this curtain is, thats reggie doing some sewing, and you can just imagine how angry you would get when a bunch of lights don't work!Anyway, I tired, I need my beauty sleep, I'm sure a lot of other funny things happened, but I can't remember them... I really need to sleep because I sense a cold coming on and I don't want to get sick!!
A.Mac
Good with Hot Tools
But the one thing I love about seeing people with mp3 players, not just iPods, is that I'm curious
to know what they are listening too. Is that little girl bopping away to the Spice Girls or the wiggles?? Is that guy in the suit tapping his foot to Blink 182 or well the Spice Girls :P One thing that kinda annoys me is when people have it up soooo loud you can hear it... The main reason why I hate this is because they take away the fun at guessing what people are listening too, but also because it makes me turn mine up, because I don't wanna be able to hear Shannon Noll in the background to "Hip's don't lie"... Then, this gets me in trouble when I leave the tram and totally forget that I had to turn my iPod up, and have it on full ball... It usually think about how loud it is, when I've got something from like High School Musical playing and all these people are giving me weird looks, and old men are giving me winks!!! Ewww....As much as I love my mini to death, it also shits me to no end!!! There was a portion on time when he just didn't work, and it was sooo annoying, and it wasn't until I threatened him that I would replace him with a younger model?? Then he changed his tune, starting to switch on! :P
Without my mini, I don't know what I would do?? I think, I've have to end up singing on the trams, and if anyone has heard me sing, you know thats a BAD thing!!!
Adam iMac
Waiting for iPod-Human marriages to become legal
On Saturday night, I was pretty much glued to the stage at Diva, see right!!! Yes, if you couldn't tell by the rainbow curtains, Diva's the gay club that I go to... Lots of fun... Anyway, I had a great night, filled with lots of funny stories, and good laughs. Another great thing that happened was that my parents and sister went. Now I was so scared, because I turned up before them, so here I was sitting in Diva waiting with baited breathe for when they would turn up, and to see their initial reactions.
Needless to say, I shouldn't have worried at all, seeing that everything was fine. I the main thing that was worrying me the most was the fact that I knew Tabitha would get me on stage, and more than likely mum, but by the time that she pulled me up on stage, I was kinda drunk, so I basically brought mum up with me as well!!! Needless to say Tabitha was a bitch, commenting about mum's age when she had me, but it wasn't as bad as I thought she might be!!I had bought new clothes for my birthday, so that was very exciting, but because I had my digital camera in my front pocket, my fly kept coming undone... So it was undone when I was on stage, so every couple of minutes, I'd turn around and face the back of the stage and do my fly up!! I thought it was funny, well I thought what happened with my fly outside was funnier!!! Carmela found a safety pin and decided to pin up my fly. This was funny, as
we were both drunk as skunks, standing in a doorway on Commercial Rd, with Carmela's hands at my crotch trying to pin them. We both couldn't stop laughing, it was worse when I yelled out, I don't want a piercing there, I'm already getting a tongue one, OMG!! I love ya Meegs. We ended up both going back inside, tears from laughing, broken safety pin, and an uncontrollable fly!It was a great night, and I realised that all the things that I had worried about turning 21 were all about nothing!!! Which is great!!! I'm kinda looking forward to being a 21 year old, even thought I was petrified about becoming one....
Well I best be running, birthday things to do!!!!
A.Mac
Birthday Boy!
Introducing the latest C Grade Personality....
(¯`·._.·[PRINCESS OCTOBER]·._.·´¯)
For being the most talked about person in the 'Name Dropper' game, well the only person talked about in the game, Princess October is the latest C Grade Personality. And for that, she gets to take over the spotlight on this website for a little bit!!! So this post is all about her!!!
She runs a blog, its called Real Feelings, Real Thoughts, Really Me. This is one of my favourite blogs, one that I check with regularity. Her posts have one thing that a lot of blogs out there don't have, a true human element. Posts can range from being hilarious, to so deep and meaningful, I feel like sometimes I'm invading her space, like stumbling across her secret diary. But after reading some of them I wanna go and give her a big hug. I know its only a blog, but it gets you hooked... I remember when I read a first post, I had to go back and read all her posts, and I did.
Now I know I'm not the only one who is addicted to her blog... I know that Skanky-Jo is as well!!! The reason why I know this... Well you see, Princess October recently had a baby, and she posted when she went into labour and then there was a period of time when she didn't post. Needless to say, that period of a couple of days we waiting with anticipation for the arrival of both the post, and well the baby as well... It was when we discovered the post, there was a phone to Skanky-Jo, going OMG!!! She's had it!!!
If you hadn't already read it, than read it NOW!! And don't forget to bookmark it, because its an awesome read, and I look forward to reading about all her brand new adventures with Allie, Cody and Dalton.
The next 'training' will be released soon... Stay Tuned!!!
Till then check out Princess October's blog...
A. Mac
Stepping out of the spotlight so others can step in
... I'm going to disappear!!
Well not completely disappear, but for the next couple of days, I won't be blogging, and I won't be on MSN... This is not by choice, but by the hands of my DSL connection which HATES me!!! But I have been assured that the connection should be fixed by late Wednesday evening, fingers are so crossed right now!!! :P
Anyway, in the mean time, I so don't know what I'm going to do in the wee hours of the morning, might have to take up Big Brother again, or maybe start to fix up "Who wants to be a C Grade Personality?", because it basically flopped hardcore... Anyway, some hardcore followup needs to happen with that... Mainly the winner, "Princess October", given her due spotlight here :P
Anyway, while I'm gone, don't miss me, but wait with anticipation, for what magical transformations will follow when I come back on-line...
Until then, just say the magic word... UMMM... "PEANUTS!!!"
Cheers,
Mr Mac
Future Magician
In case you may or may not have noticed, AdamMac has kinda disappeared, what from MSN, blogger and other internet commitments I have... Well that is because his internet is being a bitch. Basically its all connected but something is fucking up, and it is pissing me off!!! I have to call DSL support and get some help, because its driving me crazy not having net access....
Anyway, that hasn't been the reason why I havent blogged in a while. The main reason is because I feel I'm suffering something that can only be described as "Blogger's Block". Which I know sounds really sad, but its true. Like my last post was well and truly a while ago. I think the only reason why I'm blogging is because I thought that work was supposed to start at 8am!! Boy!! Was I wrong!! Thats why I'm blogging, nothing better to do...
Over the last couple of weeks, I've gotten a few more addictions, well not addictions, because I haven't been needing to do them all the time, but have developed some new loves, one of which being Big Brother UK!! I've watched bits of pieces and from what I've seen, its awesome. They have more twists and more interesting housemates, and a couple of the formalities, like nominations and evictions are a little bit different, so thats all good. All in all, its really good...
I was thinking of doing something similiar to what Skanky Jo did, sorry you'll always be skanky to me :P, where she posted her goals for the future, and the things that she wanted to do, but when I thought about it, I don't really know what I wanna do, so that isn't going to be fun. One thing I know that I want to do, is to go overseas.
For some reasons, the majority of my friends are going overseas at the moment, or intend to by the end of the year. It makes me so jealous, seeing that the only place I have been overseas is NZ and that was when I was 12. I wanna get away from it all, I need a holiday, but one thing is holding me back.. MONEY!!! I can't afford a h0liday. I know this is my own fault, because basically I live by myself in St Kilda, so majority of my pay goes to rent, but I'm at the point where I don't care where I go, it doesn't have to be overseas, anywhere in Australia would be fine!! The last time I went interstate was ages ago, like we are talking years, and not just 2 or 3, but like 5 or 6!!!! Even if I did have the money, I think I still probably wouldn't go, because I don't know who I would go with.
Its my birthday soon... I'm turing 21! I still can't believe it. I don't feel like I should be turning 21, it just seems wrong. I can't tell people that I'm 21, because I don't feel like. I still feel like I'm young for some reason. I don't know what it is but for some reason, I don't feel in my 20's. I still feel like I've only just turned 18, not 3 years older than that. I was looking at some photos of my times at school, thanks SkankyJo, and it kinda hit me a little bit that I was older, but not a lot. I look different, mainly older and a bit skinner, but apart from that, thats the only real difference. I know it may sound weird, but how do I turn 21?? Is there something that I must do beforehand. Like I know that I turn 21 on the 10th of July, but how do I feel like a 21 year old???? I feel like I've missed some rite of passage somewhere and am stuck being young.
This year is my third year out of high school, and to think that if I had stayed at uni, I would be completing my Bachelor of Arts degree. Sometimes I see dropping uni as a big mistake, but other times I feel like it was the best thing I have done. I've looked back at some choices I've made in my life and trying to see how it has affected me. Obviously, if I hadn't dropped out of uni, I would still probably be at home, and would be spending more time with my family, my little sister wouldn't mistaken me for Captain Feathersword and I would more than likely still be at my old job. Would I have liked that path more than the one I'm currently on at the moment?? Or is this the path that I should be taking?? Theres no way for me to go back, I'm aware of this, the only thing I can keep doing is walking down the path that I've chosen and what for my desk fork in the road. But how long will that take?? And what will it be??
I know I've talked about being single in previous posts, or maybe even hinted at it a little bit, but I figured seeing that I'm going into details about my life at the moment, that I would go into it here. Yes I'm single! I've been single for a while now. Maybe too long, but I know for that I only have myself to blame. I know that they are a lot of people out there, and that all I have to do is go out there and I will find someone, but something is holding me back for some reason. I think the main reason is that I'm not confident in myself enough to be willing to find someone, to be willing to open up to new people. Thats why I tend to not go out there and find new people, but to go out there and stay with my friends, which is another totally different point all together. Another thing is that I can't find time to meet people... I always tend to be too busy, or there is something going on and it just doesn't seem to happen. A lot of people say that if you worry about finding someone you never will, but if you don't you will find someone! I don't know how this works, because its hard to get the notion out of your head that you don't want to find someone.
I was talking about friends earlier and how they are a huge part in my life. I look at my current friendship circle, and realise how important the people in it are, which makes me angry! Now that may seem like a funny thing to say, but my friends have stuck by me through a lot and I have been quite bad to some of them. I feel angry, because people have been so nice to me, yet I have been horrible in return. I know that I went through a stage about a year ago, where I may have hurt people, or removed myself from some people. I do apologise to those people and are thankful that you are still my friends. I know that I've been a bitch to everyone, I don't know why I have done this, but for some reason it tends to happen, and I'm glad that my friends have stuck by me and not left me, without you guys I would be lost. I've made some horrible mistakes in terms of choosing whom my friends are, and hopefully I've learnt from those experiences.
Well, I gone on so much in this post, and can't believe I've written as much as I have!
Hope you enjoyed the little adventure through the thinkings of AdamMac :P
Cheers,
AdamMac
Open for Inspection.